I have only recently reconnected with my father and he intends to abandon everything and flee on foot in a worst case scenario, my family wants to drag me back into Babylon because of the inflation straining them. Thus far everyone we've contacted who promised a homestead or a place of shelter has failed to even provide a location for us to go to and has ghosted us, at this time i don't have a plan of my own to leave Oklahoma and i'm hoping that my body is healed to travel on foot with. We anticipate COVID to restart this year and that will mean police officers will be targeting people like me to inject with their death shots. Our vehicle was stolen through fraud and we've relied on other people to drive us places, we want nothing to do with the legal system {babylon}, we just want to go to a community of fellowship to live independently of society.

I am new to this community, i have come here looking for fulfilling rest, new relationships, the healing power of many, and potentially a new purpose, to quell the chronic darkness which has grievously vexed my spirit over the past year. I have no friends i actively talk with and i was pulled out of highschool ever since the death shots were mandated, i have been isolated with way too much free time and i question my sanity from the repetitiveness of my condition. I was programmed to be avoidant of intimacy, to fear and cringe at expression, yet my heart disagrees with this. I know if i continue to hide like that, i will surely experience the despair of being in the shadow of death again. Most of the free time that i otherwise would have dedicated to study has been consumed by this darkness, it's all my fault and i feel that i have no time left. I feel hopelessly degenerate, out of place, unprepared to transition to a pre flood world. I've needed to arm myself with scriptures against racketeering fraudsters for a long time, and everything that threatens me seems to be coalescing near the end of this December, and during this winter. I have struggled alone to stay awake and free myself from a bed of thorns entangled around me, but they have leeched the brute strength i once displayed, i have waited for it to come back and i haven't perceived it coming back.