Reflections on old dream, new insights.
IRL The last month brought a continuous stream of breakdowns and mishaps, stability rattled. Appliances and devices had to be replaced. Relatives got pneumonia, broke bones, had unexpected expenses. One repair caused another appliance failure. Help desks were run by AI and totally unhelpful, so I wasted hours each day trying to resolve (in a cold house with furnace not working).
In parallel, families in the ME were uprooted and left without heat, housing, friends, tools they relied on.
-- Prayers for all going through that --
Weeks ago, I'd reflected on how national/world chaos would destabilize our lives, reveal how dependent we were on electronics. But the crises I was going through this month did not relate to world chaos-- it was just flukes, old machines, untrained AI, lack of staffing.
I was so restless, I could not imagine myself handling crises as I expected I would.
Years ago, a dream of msls raining down from above, and everyone running to structures of authority, but never getting to safety. Seeing how under-trained AI made me so frantic, felt just like the dream.
I realized all the businesses adopting AI were essentially abandoning their customers. (Online reviews are loaded with customers whose transaction records were erased, payments changed, hundreds of dollars lost in space.) Imagine how lost people would be in mix of blackout and lack of helpdesk service.
I found that when problems are unresolved, I panic inwardly (less outwardly), and adrenaline pumps until I settle the problem. But when helpers don't listen and problems stay unresolved, my adrenaline increases and takes me nowhere but into anger. I exhaust myself, stay tense. I'd guess we all do that.
My point -- it is not just scurrying like a squirrel that helps us prepare. I for one need to practice staying calm in crisis. Practice asking God how to solve things, BEFORE I jump to conclusions. Prayer can be like reading the instruction sheet before assembling.
Scriptures remind us to put our trust in Him, lean on Him, live in peace and restraint, not lean on our own understanding. We need to keep hearing/reading these words for our own survival.
Trusting in Jesus Christ is how I live, anxiety thus is far fleeting from my heart I have had to be prepared in advance broken as mental and physical being then reforged in the Holy Spirit fires of god himself. What I can say is it gets better. God breaks you before he uses you fully I just got sick and was painfully affected for a week just to protect me from the Marburg virus. But I trusted Jesus would heal me and he did. I'm still sick now but only little in comparison. The salivary glands and tonsils were so enlarged it hurt to swallow and the pain was extreme. My eyes expelled toxins to kill the viral infection had to wash my hands often after cleaning them.
Nothing Jesus Christ is easy it's just the better path. Technology will be done away with by the 1000 year reign. It's why I stopped playing video games not to mention modern games suck 99% of the time like most media anyways.