Im Only asking those who truly know scripture to reply since im freaking out about my salvation in Jesus Christ if im really saved or not. I have struggled with pornography and masterbation all my life, I hate doing it even when im doing it. After I feel so horrible, I have no idea what true repentance is and I thought it was working on bettering your self. So since im praying for Jesus to help me with this sin is this true repentance? Paul also says why do I do the things that I hate doing. So he clearly sinned but he hated doing so, he didn't enjoy it and want more of it, same as me. Im scared im not saved based on this scripture "Galatians 5:19-21 Now the works of the flesh are evident: sexual immorality, impurity, sensuality, idolatry, sorcery, enmity, strife, jealousy, fits of anger, rivalries, dissensions, divisions, envy, drunkenness, orgies, and things like these. I warn you, as I warned you before, that those who do such things will not inherit the kingdom of God."
I am so beyond depressed and I feel there is no hope for me to be saved since I do such a sin and its everywhere! In my dream that demon attacked me and it was a spider with many ugly woman heads. Multiple times I woke up half way but still dreaming and hords of demons where speaking against me moaning and saying word's useing my own voice! Back in 2019 a visable demon nearly killed me. And when I was 19 I died in a bike crash and Was in Heaven, I felt so much Love its I cant even explain it. It was all white with a circle of white in front of me that was whiter than the rest. I felt extremely warm also like I was cuddled up in a blanket in front of a hearter feeling Loved. I also remember being huged. But before I knew ot I was put back into my body. I don't understand! Im in tears so confused about my salvation, from what happened I seem to be saved, but what scripture says im not since I cant defeat and stop doing the sin I hate doing!!!
I would recommend try going on a fast if you can. Few things help to Crucify the Flesh like Fasting. The only appetite the Flesh will have is for food. All other appetites will fade in comparison.
Also meditate on Scriptures about 'being Crucified with Christ'. "We were therefore Buried with Christ through Baptism into Death" The Flesh has been Killed.
Can a dead man continue to sin?
When you sleep try playing scriptures or Praise Music. There are a lot of Youtubes where they play 7 hrs of scripture to soothing music. it will enter your subconscious. Demons Hate the word and they hate Praise.
Confess you have overcome this sin even though you have not yet done so. It is a positive confession and it is the Truth. Your Spirit man simply has not put the Flesh and Soul man in it's place yet.
The Lord reminded me to give you these verses:
Romans 10:9
If you declare with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.
1 John 1:9
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.
Yes, you’re saved. But the demonic attacks in your dreams are occurring because you allow them to by engaging in sinful behavior. So, ’resist the devil and it’ll flee from you‘ you need to muster up all your strength to abstain from masterbation And pornography. A mind that is steeped in the word of God has a much much harder time engaging in sinful activities, so get yourself deep into His word and you’ll find the power of those temptations getting weaker and weaker. don’t let the devil beat you down by believing the lies that you’re not saved. Those lies are only being told to you so that you’ll just keep giving in to those temptations abs eventually give up. So don’t give up.
You may not can stop the sinning but through Christ Jesus who strengthens us we can do all things
Hi. I don't feel qualified to answer your question, but your post made an impact on me since I read it earlier today and I really feel with you. A little while ago this thought popped up in my head about Faithful Walk Healing Ministries, they offer prayer & counselling call. Here is a video from them about the subject you wrote about; https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=abTS-neSy_U I have prayed for you.