I took an Uber 2am cause I can’t drive totwo days ago to The Last Reformations The Ark in Connelly Springs. Said I either get some deliverence or It’s not gonna be good. I had already had so many pray for me at my house. I went to have them all and a Torben pray. I have tried all options

I don’t want to just believe God exists. I’ve always felt striving and yea it’s just not been easy and I’ve asked him to talk to me in simplest ways. Then I ? If I’m doin right this that while I’m already trying to force faith cause I can’t relax. Ugghhh I see believers and they can relax and connect and it’s not hard. For me its like uncomfortable trying to conemcebtrare imagine and the flood of thinking analyzing going around at the same time

Thank u Psych and I have wanted that personal relationship and have done nothing but seek for that. It’s hard for me to focus or like imagine God by faith and talk and then listen or trust and rest. That is like the hardest thing with how stressed and upside down my whole body and brain is.

I seen the post about the windup car. And I see what u mean. From birth with heavy metal poisoning my mind and body were totally messed up to where I couldn’t function physically or emotionally from start. Then the drugs got me to where I am now. Like devil was allowed to wind me up from start and I didn’t know how to put things together or figure spiritual out and what all I was goin through. I didn’t understand myself or anything especially how my health issues were so different and debilitating cause I survived but never really lived and functioned with people or school. Just survived through. As of now I am 4 days no sleep. My body muscles are tight as a belt and nerves feel like fire in my shin moving around. My brain is not showing any signs of calming down. I was already on pain med that always knocked me out and it’s not touching anything now. My mom wants me to go back to hospital and stay and get more drugs after what they did. I am trying to keep hope alive but human can’t keep enduring head to toe physical torture and mental emotional too with 4 days no sleep and drug induced anxiety so severe and steady nothing I do touches it. How am I supposed to do this. I gave videos that these drugs can cause damage this bad. I already delt with and was fighting to keep goin and was taking pain med for. This is has been goin on for 3 months and no let up. I am trying to surround myself with believers and love just to keep going. How do I do good reading the Bible and focusing. It’s hard connecting by faith like this. I’m crying so emotional and just numb from how severe the pain has been.

In a previous post, many people gave suggestions. Have you followed up on these suggestions? If so, what leads have you followed. If not, can you explain why this has been difficult. Lack of sleep is devastating. I went through a period where my sleep was off and actual lack of sleep was making me emotionally off balance. No one seemed to be able to help me. Come to find out, I was working in a room with no windows. I got to work before the sun rose, and didn't get a break until lunchtime. Lack of actual sunshine was confusing my internal clock and literally making me crazy. A good counselor knows how to listen, refer you to good care providers. A Christian counselor also has holy spirit wisdom. You may be dealing with spiritual, physical, emotional, mental issues all connected. What steps are you taking. I'm very concerned that you're not following up on any suggestions.

Shawn, please look at Sunbeam4Jesus' recent post, "The Devil and the toy windup car." The meaning of that dream vision should really help you. I thought of you when reading it.

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Shawn don’t worry God is with you. Have faith in Him. I am giving you number deliverance minister very anointing he is in California please call him. ASAP. Please call him he will help you out .