Can’t do this again. 3 days no sleep tho I want to. My brain is totally damaged. Excruciating pain and fire in my skin and drug induced terror/anxiety. Can’t keep hangin on like this. I am 35 yrs old live with my mom on disability. Was born with adrenal burnout copper poisoning. Never was abe to develop sense of self or confidence. All pain really. Then this happened at 21 yrs old https://youtu.be/6KRiUP3pln8 https://youtu.be/T9A8NIKh4IA I’ve hung on for dear life for so many years. Tried to find truth about Jesus. Was never able to develop good faith in the midst of being so overwhelmed. I wanted to but just couldn’t that brought me victory. Feared God and could not connect to His love easy by faith. Always so much induced anxiety from health stuff. And pain. Tried to be honest about everything and hoped God would lead me or something cause I just couldn’t figure victory out which is Jesus and rest and trust. It’s been very hard. And I’m terrified cause I can’t keep enduring this torture. Just can’t after I was barely hanging in by hope and now another severe drug reaction. 3 months and symptoms are as severe as when this first started.