I am believer and have wanted to be ready sooo bad. I was born with such a severe illness that affects u physically and mentally. Chemical imbalance chronic. Heavy metal poisoning. Crazy stuff no one understands leaving me more lonely. Never have been able to build confidence with relationships or much of anything tho tried so hard. Hard with Jesus because of all it. The crisis right now is that I am going through terrible withdrawal or brain change from a drug given to me for energy I took for 4-5 years. It was an amphetamine. It has gone on for months and i can’t take any other drugs even tho I went to hospital one day. It’s so complicated all that’s going on. The anxiety and panic. It’s terrifying because it’s not a typical situation with my health at all and has caused a lifetime of torture. I’m 35 yrs old. I have hung on for the hope oof Jesus. Words can’t describe how I need the Lords mercy. He has sustained me. I’ve not gotten dreams personally. I’m just gonna be honest. Family in Jesus I need love so bad and strength. It’s second to second so much and paralyzing fear from the circumstances. Please pray and talk with me.
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I took an Uber 2am (can’t drive now)in morning to the last reformation in NC for deliverence cause I didn’t know what else to do. Everyone prayed for me and torben did too. It’s so simple for so many and no matter how hard I’ve tried I get no where. Torbeb was shown that I had been rejected over and over and didn’t believe in Gods love or being accepted. I got no deliverence. When I try to work on things in my mind, I’m telling u it’s near impossible to get anywhere. I have tried to overcome and to changevvvc. Cant do it alone it’s even more affliction on top. Any comforts have been taken away. I slept some last night first time in 9 days cause of my brAin. The fear and anxiety is so out of control. It was bad all my life and after the first drug reaction but here it’s at constant peak panic fear. My faith and confidence always been so hard cause of this stuff for 35 yrs. I can’t build that up after so long and severe this is by myself. I’ve been tryin to do that before this happened