1/6/2020
I had two dreams on this date.
I was with Sean, he was a wonderful man I dated for two years since my divorce. I'm now reconciling with my ex-husband who I had been married to for nearly 20 years up until two and half years ago. Sean is a retired Navy Chief. He put in 24 years. Sean had to go across someone's property through a driveway. It was very important he get through an obstruction that was part of teh house but blocked his path. He thought it would release like a gate, but it was permanent. He broke off part of the house and the house was damaged. The homeowner, a well-off military man was at home and came to see the damage. He was eating expensive ice-cream from a well-known ice-cream chain in a Styrofoam cup. He wasn't upset because he understood Sean had to get through and would pay to repair the damage. During talking to Sean, he handed me the cup of ice-cream. Later I still had it and felt guilty that I forgot to give it back to him.
I was at a library I've gone to many times. I go to this special library to get information on important things I needed to know in life. I go there for help in making decisions. I knew the staff were familiar with all the major events of my life. They wanted an update on important things that had happened. I saw I was wearing my wedding rings. I was either engaged again to my ex-husband, Alan, or had remarried him again. We married in Jan 1999 and divorce in Aug 2018. I told them I was back with my ex-husband and either we were about to get remarried or were married.
I divorced Alan because he's a Type 1 diabetic and at the time had little control over his anger as he had little control over his sugar levels. Both me and my oldest daughter were in fear (I wasn't walking as close to the Lord as I am now). The church we attended wouldn't help. I asked him to leave our home till he gained control over himself. He wouldn't leave. He wouldn't see a counselor. I thought my only option was to divorce. Since the divorce I have been humbled greatly and he has been humbled an unbelievable amount. I was completely in love with the man I was dating but that "love" was interfering with my walk with God and at times I loved Sean, the Navy Chief, more than God or Christ. I don't have that intense feeling for my ex-husband but will remarry him if God's wishes because he has changed and has seen a counselor and has control over his emotions now. Alan also grew up with a grandmother who had no electricity, cooked on a wood-burning stove. Alan's stepdad is Native American and taught Alan how to hunt with a crossbow and how to process the animals they hunted himself. Alan worked on a farm as well, bailing hay, milking cows and planting and picking potatoes. He was friends with the Amish in his area in PA. He is a mechanic at work and Alan's nickname is MacGyver (the guy who could create anything from junk to fix a problem). What I'm getting at, is Alan has valuable skills for a Safe Haven. God would have to heal him of his diabetes and Thyroid disease once medication we store runs out, but He can do many things most can't do. I'm in prayer over it. Another bonus is my oldest daughter is healing and is approaching becoming Christian as a result. My other two younger children are also healing and benefiting from Alan sleeping on our couch and being with them every day again. I've lost any desire I once had. My desire is to do Christ's will for me. His perfect will. I'm in prayer on what to do next. Thank you again so much for all your input. I'm praying for interpretations to come with the dreams He has given me. I have you in my daily prayers now as well. Take care.